No longer * be the light* .....

 

I no longer wish to be the light.

Just *being a light* is shallow.

It can be anything from an led plastic desk lamp to a great

chandelier & both can throw the same  cold, artificial light .  

That is not me.

I now wish to be the sun.

For the sunshine illuminates with warmth.

It disinfects, separates the wheat from the chaff...

It is healing and provides comfort.

I wish to be the sun.

The sun is fire...it breathes and lives, it dances and moves.

Though I understand the sentiment as I wrote it for years,

I no longer wish to be associated with it.

No, I do not want to be the light.

I am beginning to be the sun.

Moving forward into 2026, I am more focused than ever to not just shine light

onto other things but to illuminate the light from within.

I can not begin to understand others while just skimming their surface nor can

they understand me without actually knowing who I am specifically.

When the past is full of negative, cold, impersonal slandering words

thrown out of people's mouths without consequences....

no amount of talking or reasoning will help.

It is time to move into the future that was always waiting.

The future is the sun.

It heals.

It grows.

It wakes us up.

It is what we seek when we are hurting or cold.

Light, shallow light - can be found in a .75 cent plastic bulb that

can not heal, only disrupts our gentle energies.

I have been stocking up on bees wax candles.

The light is so healing and does not irritate my eyes.

It is gentle and soft.

Every morning and evening I light my candles and turn off the harsh, cold

overhead lights.

( where are the incandescent bulbs we were promised?)

My Vitamin D light is also comforting.

I have been seeking both.

Restorative, healing, comforting .... as has been sitting in front of fires in the fireplace.

 

When I can not see the actual sun I must make the most of what I have.

How to be the sun:

I love this country.

But right now I have a choice....I am either healing it or hurting it.

No amount of guilt/ shaming can get me to

hate on it.

We all are this country.

We the people.

I will not back down from that.

I will not push away people who I do not agree with.

I will fully support everyones rights as citizens

to have their voice.

Right is right & wrong is wrong.

I believe God will sort it out and can care less

what you think of me thinking that.

I pray...and will always do so unceasingly.

That is the most powerful thing I can do.

If we only pick people to be in our lives who agree with 100%

of what we do then we will live lonely lives.

I also am aware of how important it is to not say

what we wish to in a knee jerk reaction that will only serve to 

fan flames that will hurt more people.

Sort out your own lives.

Look to what you can do to heal your relationships.

Focus and bring light to difficult conversations but remember respect.

It is easier to focus your artificial light on others when you

do not wish to open the curtains and let the true light pour onto your own life.

I love this country.

I will do all I can to heal it.

xoxo

Raven

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