Manifesting the future & it is peace, it is unity and will not change my heart

 

Thank you for all of the positivity from yesterday's post.

Yeah, I am happy...still smiling.

Today is a catch up in the house day.

We have generator people coming to replace a part

( seems that this house always needs something)

But for the most part, I am cleaning all the things.

Time to reset after the holiday season.

August is still hanging in there with frequent massages and baths.

I also need to clean out the outdoor fridge as a 1/2 gallon of egg nog

froze, cracked and poured to all over, ruining a lot of my seasonal veggies

with shards of glass.

Life.

It can be so mundane yet so beautiful.

This, above is my general attitude.

Always has been.

You get what you put out there.

And I choose to put out light & positivity whether

people are offended by it or not.

And to be honest if you are offended by me 

wanting peace & harmony that sounds

like a YOU problem.

There are many out here like me, just trying not to make things worse. 

However, for whatever reason  when I raise up my head and speak for the many who

won't because they will be vilified, harassed , condescended to or mocked

I  become a target.

People just want the soft , amicable , sweet Raven who prays for people,.

They want a malleable soul who will agree with them and feed them compliments .

They want what I offer; an independence , a lightness and an ethereal aura

- to stand next to me in my light without reciprocating .

Sit down Raven & just be quiet.

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How dare you want peace?

How dare you wish for understanding?

I hate this is how people react to one another now.

I hate it immensely .

For the record, I have lived through awful things not of my own making.

Black, dark & twisted things.

I have never let them make me become a spiteful, mean & angry person.

My spiritual life, my politics, my personal relationships are none

of anyones business. Never has been- yet there have always been those who

dwell there...always wanting to pick away at the boundaries I have created.

The people who talk about me , who after decades can't leave things alone.

Who stir broken pots.

And still....

I search for peace & try and be light.

I pray for people who talk shit about me behind my back.

I am aware that I am responsible to God only.

I wish one day to be reunited with my family who I lost too long ago.

For the some who think I am some unaware puppet without my own mind,

you clearly do not know me.

I am the child of a King.

I am the daughter of Lois.

I have more class and grace and loyalty than you will ever know of.

I am tough in ways I never wanted to be.

As I sit here writing this I am aware that I will be vilified no matter what I say.

I still wish the best for people.

You hate yourself, you wish to seem relevant, you have no sense of self.

I know there are so many reasons for why people attack those who seek to unite .

Mostly, I do believe they feel like they can without any repercussions .

There is a feeling of superiority that they can call others out with no consequence.

Comeuppance always happens.

It just does.

Being a mean person is not a flex.

and you want to know who will be the first to help you up off that floor

of reality and humbleness?

The person you tried to break.

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Raven

xoxo

{ be the light...no matter what }

Check-in & a small update

 

Is it me 

OR  has the energy changed.....?

Yes, I am quite sure that the energy has shifted since January 1st.

It feel different...and I feel like I have been trying to stuff my old

energy / routine etc... into a box that no longer works.

Wild.

Me trying to force my old routine in real time is quite comical.

But when I let go, truly let go... wow, I have accomplished many 

things in these past 4 days I would have either given up on or

lamented forever about how I could not do it.

I just adopted the theory that if God brings you to it....do it!

* note*

I am posting this on Thursday because life has not slowed down.

My Dr. visit yesterday that I was anxious about

went so much better than I had hoped.

The new Dr. just gets me, which is quite different than my

old one who retired.

ALL of my bloodwork came back much better than

it had been over the past 5 years.

I was even shocked to see that my scale was off by 10 pounds

and I weighed even less than I thought.

I have been working with a Dr. through Telehealth

from Arizona for the past year and I guess it showed.

Yay.

What a jolt of motivation going into this new year!

I will return you to this post but I will also tell you that tomorrows

post will outline simply what I have been doing to maintain and even

better my health as I age...

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So here I am. I am sitting down with a scalding hot cup of tea

because I was outside way too long....yes I was caring for 

a chicken who needed some extra love but I was also just walking around

the property ....watching the sunset happen ( it gets dark here in the hollow

quick ) and the ducks and geese fly up river.

It was a full day. Travel ( over 2 hours) and a dentist visit,

stopping in to visit some small shops in the village where he is.

Our business just set up a home today ( a modular one)

that the Mr. & my daughter oversaw with great precision.

I will see it soon. But it will be a long day for him with travel and such.

Still... I sat in peace, even in traffic- even when my Dr. was late and I

chatted with the building manager who let me in because it was so cold.

If I just accepted the situation instead of getting all

Italian hot about it.... wow, I am amazed at how pleasant this day was.

How sweet is this home?

It is for a young couple who just was married last year I believe.

I am always amazed by how beautiful modular homes are now.

Meanwhile I am up here at the house, caring for my sweet babies

after being gone for the morning.

This is their first winter and I wish for them a good one.

They do not seem to mind the snow which is great.

Cooper is still a bit naughty from time to time.

Nothing at all like Salty was.

I just pick him uo and cuddle him until he calms down.

He is still very young.

Please say a small prayer if you would for my August.

She is still healing from the prolapse and is being spoiled

in the back of the coop. Baths and warm hard boiled eggs

( mixed with Tums to expel an egg I suspect she is trying to get rid of

which is why the prolapse fix keeps failing)

August

Back in the day mom would make hamburger steaks.

I loved them so much but as my family grew and my budget did not

I started to buy On-Cor Salisbury steaks for a hot minute.

( I know....it makes me cringe a bit inside)

They have since stopped painting grill marks on them

but still, at 3.95 for a box now, a deal!

These & Little Debbie Oatmeal pies were the currency of my teens lives.

Ah! Memories!

Have a blessed day friends.

xoxo

Raven