Today. January. Cold.

 

It is cold.

It would be cold for any year, and it will be getting colder.

The stones of this house usually keep the warmth in

but this morning it feels like the cold is winning out.

Only a *few* more weeks.....

( I tell myself)

The Spring will certainly arrive on time.

🌿

I have been receiving many lessons recently.

The lessons, wrapped in small interactions with folks

have all pointed me in a direction.

But first, let me say that a town who does not listen to its'

people is no longer a community but a dictatorship.

This town where I live is such a town.

How sad that the ones chosen to protect its people

from predatory big business choses to look the other way

when presented with facts from the experts and the desires

of her people.

They should be ashamed of themselves.

As per usual, they push through any project presented

even though they posed hardships.

One can only conclude that they are ignorant and

not fit for their positions or wilfully ignorant

for nefarious reasons.

This quiet area should be kept this way.

It is a true gem in a state where development has

been skyrocketing and nothing is being done to

protect the environment or the people.

All I can do is pray for a miracle that this project 

does not happen. It will affect so many people & wildlife and begin the

downfall of an area of town that is pure and untouched and lovely.

On a much more positive note, I ran into the woman

who helped me the most during the worst part of my life.

I had not seen her in decades and then there she was!

In front of me at the market.

This woman I think of every time I pray.

She led my parents to a closer union with God right before

they passed. An angel in my mind.

Lately, I had been feeling a bit untethered .

My life has become quiet and Grace filled and happy but several

people whom I cared for have all made choices 

that steered them away from the path I am on.

For whatever reasons... 

(I honestly have no idea what is

happening to seemingly lovely women these days.)

This moment that I shared yesterday  seeing her was very much like

the moments when I go back to the beaches of my hometown.

I remembered who I was.

I remembered because I saw myself in the eyes of

someone who truly channeled their light onto

my sorry life at the time. Someone who was selfless and loud

( oh yes she is passionate about her faith) and for whom without,

I would be a  lost soul today.

She saw me at my most destroyed and chose to lift me

up in ways that have continued throughout my life.

We hugged and cried and chatted and exchanged numbers,

lastly praying for our families .

It was a blessing that I did not know I needed.

The lessons have been fast this new year.

I can honestly think of a dozen so far much like these.

Yes, a refinement of sorts, Thanks again Charlene!

Refinement of a life where others carried me when I could not

only to leave suddenly and in masse during a time where

I moved and the country had been going through its menopause of sorts.

It still is....

There are daily hot flashes, unsleepable nights, road rages, tears,

bad choices made on inflamed feelings rather than reason.

I understand.

I am also refining my lifestyle.

My eating, my holistic outlook, my office, my closets,

every cluttered area of my life that I avoid because it is uncomfortable.

beyond the clearing out is peace.

There is room for new growth and people who bring me joy

and for whom I can bring light to.

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So, how has your January been?

Did you make resolutions ?

Did something bigger bring you to new understandings?

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I want to be in bed today.

But today is a heavy cleaning day.

It seems that everything needs more attention seeing that I barely 

did any since starting my work on the train.

Stripping beds, cleaning floors and taking down the last of the holiday

decor is on the agenda .

Time to *refine* and clear out and let the light into the house

while also lighting a fire and using my Vitamin D light , making a pot of

immune supporting soup and brushing out the early winter dust from my dogs.

The chickens waterers will need refilling every 3-4 hours and I need to check on them

Yes, they have heat, yes they have heated waterers but they refuse to use the waterers and 

want to use the ones that are not heated....(?)

Silly chickens.

I am longing for the warm sunshine as they are too.

It will come but first this season ....

I suppose this is a great lesson.

Find ways to love the season that you are in.

Have a lovely day.

Stay warm!

And take what you need today.

xoxo

Raven