Refining you when you are finally ready....

 

You have all the peoples voices in your head

whom you ever heard say your name.

They swirl around, sometimes for years long after

the moment is over.

Starting today, realise that all of those words

said either on your behalf or against you no longer exist.

T O D A Y ~ you can start over, because that is reality.

T H A T is truth.

* * * * * * * 

It is ridiculously cold this morning.

Insulting even.

April is a fickle month.

But as I begin the day I am hopeful.

By the end of the day it will be warm, that sun is so warm

this time of the year.

I have to start planting but not today.

The chickens and I will just enjoy the light together.

Moving to the countryside I watched as I was presented with

opportunities that challenged who I *thought* I was.

My foundation was always this....

no matter how much was thrown at me over my lifetime

my ability to have compassion for others remained.

So much so that it also became what was keeping

me from truly living a full life.

I admit it, I was hurt by the ugliness I saw in others.

It was and is one of the most upsetting things....

to see the light dim in relationships.

I asked myself honestly quite recently if waiting around

for them to regain their senses is hurting me or helping me.

The answer was clear.

By refining in this season, I meant to truly pull away from 

the unhealthy emotions and feelings I carried around, with hope that

things would change. I carried disappointments and doubts,

heartache and loneliness as if all of it were mine to carry.

Once given over to the one greater than I, it was obvious 

what was now meant to be in my life moving forward.

* * * 

This week has been full.

I lost my beloved Autumn.

It was exactly how I thought it would go...

The healthier she got meant she would eventually start to lay once the light

came back full....

Her ability to lay 3x the size of a normal egg, well...

No matter what I did I could not help her pass it.

It was way too far up in her system.

Broke my heart.

To see her just last week fighting for the top of the pecking order

again after nursing her all winter was so wonderful.

Such is life with chickens.

Luckily I had time with the oldest and he heals a broken heart.

How blessed am I?

The Easter Bunny also dropped off a few new nesting boxes as

there has been some turmoil in Momma Pollypockets box

where she is brooding her babies.

So these may help.

If not I may ( as it gets warmer) put her in a spiffy new small coop

with her babies.

It is always something, and I am happy that I have the babies to

focus upon after such a loss.

Today was scheduled to be my sowing day.

But there is ice & frost out there.

I am direct sowing many items this year.

Just have to install the boarder fencing to keep the ladies out of the boxes.

Are any of you starting your gardens?

I am so eager...

Off to start the day!

May you all have a super Thursday.

Get out in the cold sunshine if you can.

xoxo

Raven