Woah.
Does this hit you as hard as it hit me?
I suppose when I first saw this I may have already been wondering
inside my head how the heck I got to where I am today.
Like, where did the time go?
Here we are.
So... remember THE LIST from ages ago?
That list that we all started with where I told you all to
start with *My favorite__________ is? *
( insert food, color, season, movie etc....)
I suppose now would be a terrific time to do
that again.
To either remember who you are after being
told by others who you were supposed to be
OR to know that you have perhaps grown in different areas
over the past several years.
We have entered a new season.
How blessed am I to live in New England.
The misty golden mornings, well... I know that I love them.
But wherever you live, Autumn is such a wonderful season.
It is golden and full of bounty.
I personally can not stop eating the apples from the orchard
up the street.
Tonight I will have acorn squash with wild rice & dried cranberries~
with a side of local maple sausage.
It seems so easy to put meals together when you base it upon
what is happening at your local produce stand.
And of course ... an apple cider slushy for dessert!
( shaved ice & cider)
It was chilly last night and will be colder tomorrow morning.
Now is the time for finishing up winter prep.
I need to bring wood closer to the house for the kitchen fireplace.
I am excited for the first fire.
Tea by the fire after morning chores is one of my favorite things.
Once I look at what I love... that list, I see that I have not changed
my preferences for delighting in how the seasons change and how they
affect me in spirit.
Bringing back a bit of the optimist in me....
Oh I was so naive .
Yes, when you are trusting and naive and open you will
be served a period of time ( if you live long enough)
where your eyes open to the truths of the world.
It is never in the big happenings for me, no, it
is those small moments that turn a once trusting
soul into one who was fearful then hurt, then jaded
and now I have settled into well worn.....
I have learned some lessons.
In this season of ghosts and pumpkins I see the ghosts and
think about the people who have left my life during this testing time.
Like ghosts, they haunt me because I have such different memories of how they used to be.
Now, I see them for who they are now, not how I wish to remember them.
It was a hard time...seeing friendships and relationships change without
any chance of saving them. I never took friendship lightly.
In hindsight it was really all about them and not me.
I do hope they find peace.
Moving on took me a while.
That is why I believe that God just knows the the perfect season
is to move you along on your life journey.
The timing is always perfect even when we believe it is not.
Perhaps that is also why I tend to love nostalgia.
I love vintage anything.
I truly believe many things were better back when.
Many.
Quite honestly, the world itself has been cycling for decades.
A major shake up would be best for us all.
To return to a time when we were ignorant seems blissful.
We know now that it is not what is best for us.
It is best to firmly plant our feet into today with a foundation built
on faith and the honest knowledge that we can not change everything.
But we can find goodness and mercy and love where we live,
in the small moments of interactions that we share which is our life.
So make that list, get acquainted with the old you coming back online or a new
wiser version, who has been seasoned with experiences that shaped
you to withstand the next 30 years.
***
May you all have a wonderful day.
Make the list.
I promise that it will be a lovely surprise.
xoxo
Raven
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