* a normal day* & finding one of my favorite lost cake recipes....

 

Monday.

                                                                           I was naive .

Then life happened.

Lots of soul tearing life events....

I fought to stay above the waterline of grief, pain and deep sadness

while still being a wife, mother and friend.

I gave to others selflessly during this time.

No one came to save me.

In those cold hospital halls I cried, I begged

and I promised....if only.

As I was being wheeled into surgeries I prayed

for the ability to be healed so I could  serve my family.

In the darkest moments where I was left alone, I grew

my childlike faith into something larger, something that sustained

me when I knew I could not do it myself.

I say this to remind myself and others that the one

thing I coveted during those times was normalcy.

A normal day.

I saw value in the mundane, like a balm for my raw soul.

I still do.

 Pain, - be it physical, mental or spiritual lived every day is a

fearful, cold, lonely place devoid of a moment of peace.

I craved a moment where I was feeling positive emotions, not just pain.

A normal day.

I wished and prayed and begged for a day where I was not covering it up

by being a human doing instead of a human being.

Normalcy to me is mom's cheese sandwich, it is a day where the chores

get done but you also stop to appreciate those serendipitous moments

that bring joy.

It is seeing my husbands face at the end of a long day.

The happy stories my grands tell me over FaceTime .

The geese honking in the river, the pups in my lap, the 

rain at my window and the feeling of a hot bath.

It is gathering up items for the local food shelter, chatting with my farmers,

driving long hours every week to see my grandson.

Normalcy is the divine.

No strife, no grief or agitation....

just the calmness & peace of life.

The appreciation of all that I have been given- time with loved ones.

I value my peace now more than ever.

I am no longer that naive girl.

I am a wiser me.

In a world bent on dragging us down every dirty, unsafe, dark emotional alley,

it is vital to remind ourselves that on these normal days we can dream and 

admire and dwell even for a moment in possibility .

Life is too much of a miracle, a blessing and a gift to be wasting one 

extra moment on anything but that.

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Oh my! The pictures from the new Withering Heights movie have been released

and just look at these ethereal gowns!

I am a sucker for dreamy dresses.

Perhaps an inspiration for the new gown I am sewing.....

THIS was the recipe I have been looking for for years!

It is my mothers *Lamb Cake* recipe she used to make at Easter.

{ you know, she would bake it in those lamb cake tins?}

I am so happy to have found it, so I wanted to share it with you!

My memories of this cake are that is is one of the best cakes I have ever had.

I will be trying this out soon ( GF of course).

Let me know if you try it before I do.

It was this promise that got me out of bed on my worst days.

This quote.

*It will all be worth it* - I would whisper to myself.....

And it is.

Have a lovely day friends, a great start to this week!

May you have many wonderful, normal moments.

xoxo

Raven