Oh yes, It was a bit chilly this morning.
I feel it...
I awoke with the feeling of angst.
Not because I did not sleep well.... I did.
But because every once in a while in my life I reach a limit that
tells me * ENOUGH!*.
Though I have taken the responsibility to really look after my health
and make changes this year ( physical, mental and spiritual)
I am sick and tired of these nagging injuries.
I am tired of not recovering 100% to then see another issue crop up.
Time to make changes.
I just do not believe that one should have pain every day.
And for years I have suffered with nagging joint issues
that heal only to arise elsewhere . It is like playing back a mole
with my joint pain.
I am done.
But to be honest, I am done at every juncture of my life.
I have reached the end of my *give a damns* my ability to suffer fools
and idiots.
As you all know...fear was the basis of all my decisions for years & years.
I was told by experts to expect the worst in every situation.
....that blessedly never happened.
However , living in that fear rewired my head and I needed
years to free myself of it.
Moving on is always hard for a Taurus.
Rooted in routine and safety, Taurus' are the most
loyal and dependable of all signs.
....sometimes to their own detriment .
The shift came as I awoke and decided I have to accept some
things in order to change others.
Just like the cool air.... it crept into my mind during
my morning prayers.
Gosh, can it just be this easy?
Knowing that it is time to move on?
Knowing that you deserve better.
Knowing that you have the power and had it all along?
That one small voice during morning prayers on a Thursday in August after
a whole month of living in daily pain and pretending I am okay with it...
after a whole 5 years of living in fear, after a lifetime of always being the
loyal, responsible one much to my own detriment?
Just jump on into the next chapter.
Well, okay.
Time to move on then.
Build a new team for a new chapter of my life.
God was already showing me in so many ways.
The earth is in a state of change to another season.
Can it be so obvious that now is the moment to allow
myself to change as well?
Growing closer to Mother Nature and Gods earthly blessings....
Fall away...
Let those things that no longer serve fall away.
Like the acorns and leaves.
Like the feathers from my hens in the cool weather.
Like the notions implanted there by others who no longer
( or never did) actually care.
Time to dig deep to my roots and pull out the next best version of me.
The voices of the fools are loud, they are the ones who
profess to know everything yet nothing in their live shows you
they know how to do anything well.
Though they may be louder, the trick is to listen for the voice of reason,
the intuitive whispers of discernment that emanate from your own
soul. Those are the guideposts you need to follow.
Not 1,578 *friends* on your social media page.
Not the media's clown show.
Not people who choose wrong who are now panicking.
Not those who want you to secretly fail.
Listen to * that small voice*.
Even if it means you do it alone.
Ah.....
Now I understand.
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I do not know about you but the energies have changed around me and in this world
vastly in the past month. I feel it in every bone in my body.
I am compelled to tear through every nook and cranny and remove
everything that is no longer useful or loved.
I am choosing new music and clothing styles, looking forward to welcoming back
old friends ( like Gilmore Girls 25th celebrations next year and Taylors'
new album, Stevie being relevant again is huge, Practical Magic is coming back
next year as well) things that I loved that I may love again in a new way.
The ease and grace that has fallen on my choices, my attitude and my
vision for the future could not have happened randomly.
It has me looking at my very home and surroundings differently too.
I flow with the energies of the creatures here & the seasons I am in.
Tearing me away from the madness of people and the world I have
no control over.
I have no need to stand on soap boxes to state my beliefs.
Those who do are puppets, manipulated by something I feel is so
dark that I refuse to acknowledge it.
I will actively live my truths.
I do not know where I am headed, I just know that I have to
change in the best ways.
No more accepting pain as a natural thing .
No more accepting nonsense.
Just a new start on an established foundation rooted in faith.
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It even tells you what species of birds are migrating too.
Taking some time this weekend to explore my own backyard.
Hiking the river property for the first time.
*gingerly*
But it was on my Summer list and it is time to finish up that list!
I can think of nothing better this long weekend than to get further into nature.
Have a great day friends.
Live your truth.
And know that there are people out here who see you and who
are so very proud to have you in their lives.
xoxo
Raven
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